I hate myself for this

I always seem to think that I am the person that anybody can easily play with…as in make me do what they think suits their own personal agenda. For most instances, I would like to assume that I am being friendly or non-frill. I mean its OK anyway sometimes.

But there are times that I really regret having given a person the kind of liberty or power in some cases to affect my course of action. I don’t know what makes me do it.
I guess its one of those sheep in the herd kind of attitude that comes of you that you don’t care to think on your own. Sometimes it is also the pressure that the situation puts on you and becomes better of your ego, and then I simply nod in agreement to whatever happens! When you know what is hapenning is not the best thing that could have hapenned....Can you really keep quiet?

Lets say this instance with reservations! No, its much more than an instance. Its a huge movement in the nation now. I have been getting a lot of mails these days to do something, join some peaceful march, sign a petition and many things of that kind....but what i have done is to delete some of those forwards.....oh yeah barring some which i found were well written. Some of these mails actually had content that was capable of generating some kind of motivation in some poor unacting souls who revel in my company. So I hit a forward button very conveniently thinking that I have done my bit. Iam almost sure that we would not actually go to these protests, oh Iam scared of the blore police, some of whose men can aim and shoot at the most unappropriate moments! and those Lathis....Hey hang on! i have signed some of those petitions....yes, very much in the comfort of my seat....with a nice song playing on the headphone stuck on me. Its ok anyways that I have done my Btech and there are less chances that i fall a victim of this reservation shit..But i forget that there is more to this than the immediate that i can think of....

I have a brother in class 10 now...and i think he is quite good at studies and all....I keep setting these ambitious targets for him(sometimes bossing over)...coz i think its a good thing to be a source of motivation to your kid brother, especially after you were the star of your own school. Iam not lying when I say I have had an excellent record in studies and allied things. So I am sort of looked upon in the family as one of those good girls who has done her bit to make her parents proud. And these poor kids in the family( the larger one) are put under contstant pressure to perform and keep the pride of the family.
I think that at this point I can do much more than a forward to save my own brother from falling prey to such senseless shit with reservations. Why the hell does anybody need a reservation? Is it not enough to have earned the image of a corrupted nation, full of those people who are no better than parasites? Every other day, we are discussing a major murder case/ racket/ scams on TV and doing those SMS polls for incidents that happened years ago...what a pity on our judicial system? Is it not enough to make the world think that we are those kinda people who are always finding excuses to avoid doing work (of any kind or degree) and pass it on to some poor fellow who does not have a clue of what will hit him next? We already have so many bad things about us..is there a need for more?

Think of what will happen to the best institutions we have that churn out thousands of engineers, doctors, architects, designers, scientists, agriculturists, artists and many more such able people. Having reservations will hit our educational standards so badly that i can already see the smart ones leave the country for a better future overseas and find home there. All we will have are the Call centers in the name of foreign investments and dollar earnings....all thanks to the Britishers for the gift of their language in return to the pride that we dearly held once.

God! Please save us from this.....hmm.....i think i can do more than typing a prayer here!

The Catcher in the Rye - My Review

Well the name of the author of this strange novel is JD Salinger. Incidentally it doesnt hit most of us at first shot what the title means....but I shall leave it to the reader to find out!

Well, I read the book mostly for a singular reason that my room mate had it and I was more than free to read it...But i didnt know a few things about this book until i started reading it....This book was banned in America after its first publication..
Reason ? There it is ...i paste this from a blog....
John Lennon's assassin, Mark Chapman, asked the former Beatle to sign a copy of the book earlier in the morning of the day that he murdered Lennon. Police found the book in his possession upon apprehending the psychologically disturbed Chapman.
However, the book itself contains nothing that could be attributed with leading Chapman to act as he did - it could have been any book that he was reading the day he decided to kill John Lennon - and as a result of the fact that it was The Catcher in the Rye, a book describing a nervous breakdown, media speculated widely about the possible connection.......

Well thats a surprising intro to a book that is actually quite sweeet at some points, well but not entirely so....
Its about a guy who is chucked out of one more school again for his inability to apply himself at school....The whole novel is about a vacation that he decides to take after the expulsion and before he finally goes home to face his parents....he explains some really tiny human elements that sort of appear very similar to the way we feel about certain things but we have never had time or the vision to analyse them or even recognise these elements within us.....

I must mention that is a sort of a depressing book in some parts when we actually think of oursleves fitting so well in the category of the Phonies of the world....but then it is quite thought provoking.....a well written novel, applauded mostly for the fascinating and enlightening description of our human condition

I dont know if I must finally recommend this book to anybody...but yes, if you have a liking for understanding human behaviour, you should try this....
If you are looking for Time pass and a non engaging, cool reading, sheldons are always there.....

Trekking - My First Experience

This being my first trek, i was really not sure if i would make it but my stamina really gave me a pleasant surprise. One thing I realized during this trek is that there are no limits to what you can do with will power, at least the limits that I set for me were so so incorrect!

Ok, we started on friday night and took 8 hrs to reach the forest office in Srimangala for the required permissions to trek inside the Brahmagiri Wildlife sanctuary. You also get a guide at this point. Once we all got freshened up, it was time to start. We went straight ahead to Irupu falls - also called the Lakshmana Theertha River, 1km Up.

These falls has a story behind them. It is said that holy water was created by Lakshmana with his mighty arrow to quench Rama's thirst on their way back from Lanka after rescuing Sita. After a really gooddip in the Chilled water at the irupu, we had to start for our nextdestination - narimale base camp. It was like noon and the camp was4.5km from Irupu - Uphill. The first Kilometer was real pain - more sobecause of our sedentary lifestyle.Then it started becoming a little flat when we could manage to walk without complaining :-) I must mention here that we had a lot of luugage to carry uphill - sleepingbags, food for 2 days, water, ropes, clothes and a lot of otherstuff....which made our bags real heavy.

We reached the Narimale base camp at around 3:30 - very tired after asteep 1.5 km stretch towards the end. By this time, everyone was almost dying with hunger and thirst. We quickly finished our packed lunch and some people had the good luck of a nap in the very few beds available. I finished my afternoon merely by staring at the surroundings and tryng to get used to them.

Just relaxed for a while and started for another destination - narimale Peak, thankfully, this time without the bags. It was about 3.5 km from the base camp, Uphill.A part of this was really really steep....At one point I almost gaveup...I told all my friends to proceed to the top and pick me on their return. But somehow I thought I will not come to this place again and strengthened my will to do it....with a bit of help on the steepest parts, i made it to the top! It was awesome up there.....I really cant believe I made it when I look at the snaps of the peak that were takenfrom the botttom......We were almost in the clouds.....Heaven!!

After a very rewarding sight of the sunset from the Hill top, we trekked down and soon it was very dark.....and now we had to cook dinner....we had taken some instant food and quickly made it....and then you can all imagine the kind of masti 20 ppl around a fireplace can do.....we had a nice cheasy round of introduction and games with alot of teasing going on..... ....well wondering why the introduction....hehe, actually we were all a mixed group from variuos companies....ppl got their friends together and stuff....i did notknow 75% of the crowd before going.....but it was really nice knowing so many people and they were all very sweeet, i was so surprised at how co-operative everyone was....We slept on the very thin sleeping bags, some ppl also on the floor...the rats had great time eating our food and i dont know watelse.....:-D

Ok, now day2 - we started early in the morning.....hey actually, i forgot mentioning that we had finished up all the water we had on the first day....so we were really stuck...We had to manage with some dirty (stagnant) water at dinner....huh! Though it was boiled, it had this brownish colour, so i slept without touching it! :-(

Ya, so we started early in the morning to Muneccal caves, they are inKerala....Ok this place called brahmagiri is actually in the karnataka- kerala Border..... the funny thing is that one of the guys had the signal on the moutain (Airtel , super!) and was worried if it would be roaming if he made any call ..hahaahahha.....The caves were 3.5 km or even more from our base camp....this time most part of it was flat, thankfully....we spotted some deers on ourway....and guess wat, we found a fresh water stream..it was flowing and the water was awesome.....chilled and tasted gr8!! it was a like a gift from heaven......we got back to the base camp by 11am and started the trek downwards after a short round of photosessions .....this time it was easy....yeah, but quite risky in the slopy parts.....i actually fell down twice but both times moved no further coz of all the weight....all that was there in the fall was a loud sound "THUD"and then I coolly dust it off and started walking :D
After a cool and refresing dip at the Irupu, we got back to our vehicle and started for Bangalore....Well the drama and the adventure did not end here.....our vehicle stopped moving at mandya, on the mysore highway.....some diesel leakage was the answer to my curiuosity and irritation.....then we, in very filmy style, stopped a bus on the highway and got toBangalore.....i finally reached home at 2am on monday with 2 blisters on my feet, almost broken legs, lots of unused tissue papers, mud allover my clothes and shoes....and wonderful time to cherish!